04.06.17 – Ctrl-T, Sign In, Log Out, Ctrl-W, Wait, Ctrl-T, Sign In…

Hello there!

Happy April, everyone! Is it just me, or does it feel like this year is zipping by? I can’t believe we’re already four months in 2017. That’s 95 days (I searched this up. I’m not mathematically inclined, although I do know people who are)! Anyways, the first week of April is my last week of school, so I have some weird feelings about this month. Good feelings, mind you, but also some negative feelings. “What would those be, Keith? I thought graduation time is happy times,” you ask with inquisitive thoughts.

Well, I’m currently looking for a new full-time job as the job that I currently have right now is – how can I say it – not entirely what I am looking for in a career. I like the environment. I like the people. I like the organization. However, I find myself looking out the huge window at my temporary desk (it’s legitimately a huge window overseeing the road, and yes, I do not currently have a desk as the one I am using is only a temporary location) hoping and praying that there’s something better for me. Maybe yesterday will attribute to it, but I don’t know.

I had a job interview yesterday. It was for a mobile video game company (one of my dreams is to work at a video game company), and I thought I did okay in my interview. In terms of a letter grade, I thought I did a B. The people who interviewed me were all great people, and they were nice and accommodating. I didn’t feel awkward at all. I feel like I messed up some questions, but overall I think I did well, and they told me that they’ll let me know in the next two weeks.

However, I thought I didn’t do well enough to land the position, so I decided to do something that I have never done before (and I mean, never done before): send a Thank You email for the interview. So I sent one this morning, and now I keep checking my email to see if it would help with my application. But I feel terrible.

I feel terrible because I’m now worried and anxious about this position.

I find myself going through the motions of making a new tab on Chrome, signing in to my email, not seeing anything and immediately signing out, exiting from the tab and doing some of my work, then doing the same thing all over again. Isn’t insanity doing the same thing over and over again? But I can’t help it. I can’t help but worry about this job because I feel like it’s my way out of my current workplace. I know that I should be blessed with having a position in the first place and that I should be focusing on God more, but my worries just seem to take over when I’m working, and I can’t do anything.

I just want to know!

Yet, through all of this, I find myself looking back and thinking about what God said to the sons of Korah in Psalms 46:10 (ESV):

“Be still, and know that I am God.
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth!”

I keep worrying, and God is telling me to be still. He’s telling me that He’s got it. He’s telling me that He has me in the palm of His hands. He’s taking care of me. He has me in His mind, and that He is paving my path for me. He was there for me, He is here now, and He is already where He wants me to go. God’s got it all, and all I have to do is wait on Him.

All I have to do is be still and know that He is God.

“Be still, and know that I am God.
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth!”
– Psalms 46:10 ESV

TL;DR – Keith has mixed feelings about April. Keith looking for full-time job and got interview yesterday (yay!). Keith sent Thank You email back, and now Keith is worried about job. Keith doing same thing over and over again. God reminds Keith to be still and wait on Him. Keith, remember Psalms 46:10 ESV.