05.18.17 – Paving The Imperfections And Blemishes

Hello!

Welcome to another day of reading Keith’s thoughts as he purposefully writes too much about something insignificant! Hear ye, hear ye! I’m sure you don’t want to read this!

All right. I think people got the point. I don’t want to overdo it.

I’ve recently been thinking about my weaknesses lately, and it all stems from a book that I’m currently reading called The Christian Atheist by Craig Goeschel. This book was published in 2011, and it’s been a nice, easy read so far. The book describes a lot of truths about what he means by the words “Christian Atheist” and it has, so far, been relatable in all aspects of my life. I’m just about halfway through the book, but I recently finished the chapter called “When You Believe in God but Donʼt Think You Can Change” and it was eye-opening.

In it, Goeschel describes the belief that Christians have about not being able to change their personality, attitudes and habits. Goeschel talks about his own problem of being a workaholic, and describes the struggle of not seeing the negative impact it was having on him and his family’s life. He also adds stories of other people and their struggles, and paints this picture of God’s ability to change people if they seek Him and ask Him for help. It was a great read.

It got me thinking though. Like Craig Goeschel, maybe there are some things that I’m oblivious to that is gradually affecting me, my family and friends. Maybe there are habits that I have that make me believe that I can never change that part of my life. Maybe there are beliefs that I have about myself that I grew up thinking but are actually lies. I don’t know, and I’m not sure what they are. This led me to looking at who I am internally and assessing which habits and attitudes that I need to work on and improve upon. I’ve found a couple of things:

  • I am afraid of social interaction, but I like talking to people about all sorts of topics: from God, to video games, to politics, just to name a few.
  • I have a defense mechanism to back out of anything that becomes heated or has too much work involved in it.
  • I make excuses for not talking to people for the sake of not talking to people.

I’ve struggled with all these things ever since I was younger, and it still follows me today (especially the social interaction fear). I don’t know why I never got the courage to tackle all these things head on when I was younger so I don’t have to deal with them now. But alas, things just aren’t meant to be.

Or are they?

Can we really change habits that we have that are not God-given? Can we really change our habits with God’s help? Can we actually do the things that we’re afraid of and do them without fail? Can we?

Well, we do serve a God who can do the impossible, so why not?

My goal is now to be able to talk to people without being socially awkward, and to work my hardest in overcoming these fears that I have. How do I do that? I don’t know, but at least I have a goal in mind! As long as I believe and pray that God can change me, I know He will do so for nothing is impossible with Him.

I mean, we are going from glory to glory, right?

“And we all, with unveiled face, beholding the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from one degree of glory to another. For this comes from the Lord who is the Spirit.”
– 2 Corinthians 3:18 ESV

TL;DR – Keith has been thinking about his flaws lately. Keith’s been reading The Christian Atheist by Craig Goeschel. Keith says it has been good. Keith talks about a chapter describing changing. Keith has things he has to change. Keith, remember 2 Corinthians 3:18.