It has been a while since I’ve done anything to this website. I’ve been very busy, and, to be honest, I’ve been really lazy too, which definitely sucks. I am on my last semester before I graduate, and my motivation is at an all-time low. This gets worse when I browse through social media, like Facebook.
I was on break today for work, and I started browsing through Facebook. I saw a sponsored ad for a podcast that people from my old program (musical theatre) are doing, and they had one of my former cohort/classmate on the podcast. So I read the details, and it was a great description of my classmate. She has always been serious about musical theatre, and she was, in my opinion, one of the most disciplined and technical students in my class.
Being on Facebook, I decided to check on how she is. So – oh, why did I do this? – I clicked on her name and started browsing through her Facebook page. She holds a position in a famous tea place (good for her), she teaches at a musical theatre kids’ program (where she used to perform), and she also does musicals on the side with a famous musical theatre non-profit society that holds performances in the summer.
These details made me feel terrible.
I was in the same cohort with her on 2010 and was bound to graduate from the program at 2013. If I stayed on the program, I would have been doing similar things that she is doing right now and having a great time performing on musicals or teaching musical theatre classes. I would have had four years of experience, and I would have been able to do things differently than the life I’m having right now. I would have been leading a different life. I would have been living a dream life. My life would be better now.
Then, a phrase appeared in my mind (Holy Spirit, please):
Why are you comparing yourself with someone else?
I didn’t really know what to say. It’s true. Why am I comparing myself with someone else? Maybe because I grew up always thinking that the grass is greener on the other side. But the thing is, everyone’s journeys are different from everybody else, including mine. Everyone has their own journey to go through. Everyone is different, including me.
Matthew 6:33 (ESV) says, “But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.” If I seek God first, I know that everything will come in its own proper time. All I have to do is wait on Him and be still.
I hope this encourages you in some way. God bless you all, and have a great day!
TL;DR – Keith checks friend on Facebook. Keith feels terrible. Keith, stop comparing yourself with other people! Keith, remember Matthew 6:33 ESV.